Scared

I went to the doctor last week because of some swollen glands, after looking at the glands and some past bloodwork they are sending me to the Cancer Center.
I am scared. I know that I shouldnt worry until I know if there is really something to worry about but I am so scared right now, more scared than I have ever been.
Im not scared of dying, I know without a doubt that when I leave this life I will go to Heaven.
What I am scared of is leaving those that I love behind.
Erika: how will she react, I know that she has Caleb to take care of her, but she has always been a mommys girl. She can call me anytime and I calm her fears. Who will she call if I am gone?
Daniel: What will he do? Will this make him drown in his addictions or will it make him see how fragile life is and make changes?
Cassie: She still has so much to do. Who will help her with college stuff? Help her pick out a wedding gown, hold her hand when she has her first baby?
Emily: Will she remember how much I love her, will she remember what joy she made me feel? Will she remember me at all?
John: Who will take care of him? Who will make sure that he remembers to pay the bills, who will remind him to call his girls and his mom? Will he love again? Will he be okay?
Caleb: Does he know how much he means to me? How proud I am of him?
Tronda: Who will she call when she needs to vent, to cry? Who will assure her of how wonderful she really is?
Mom: who will be there to care for her?

How do I make sure that all of the people that I love know that I love them? How do I make sure that they will be okay when I am gone? How do I make sure that they remember the good things? Are there really very many good things about me? Did I do what I was here to do? What is Gods plan for me? Did I make a difference?
I know that it is silly to worry over what might not be, but I am so scared that I feel sick inside. I am praying for comfort, for peace. I am so thankful that I know the Lord and that I know that when I die I will be with Him in Heaven.